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Q.
So last year I found out my boyfriend of nine years was having an emotional affair, sending texts to other girls he shouldn’t have, and generally being pretty douchey.
I found this out because I read texts between him and his male best friend talking about this stuff.
I know, a massive breach of privacy. To try to defend myself — I was really suspicious because he was going out a lot more at night, staying late after work, never leaving his phone out of sight, and was being really cold with me. I tried to talk to him about my suspicions, but he would deny it and walk off. (He later admitted he was walking off so he could delete suspicious texts from other girls.)
Anyway, so I did read his texts with his best mate who I knew he would talk to if anything were going on. In the texts, the friend was joking about the situation and my boyfriend liking other girls, inviting my boyfriend to visit him to meet other girls, talking about them being single together, and even said: “haha imagine if your girlfriend read this.”
I was really hurt because I’d spent a lot of time with this best friend, gone on double dates with him, cooked him dinner, had him stay over at our house. I also have never prevented my boyfriend spending time with him whether its lads weekends away or nights out.
My boyfriend and I have done A LOT of work to repair the relationship, and I now trust him again. But I hate the fact he is still friends with this man because he clearly has no respect for me or our relationship. He hasn’t even asked my boyfriend how things are between us after the shit hit the fan.
Can I ask him to ditch this guy as a friend?
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A.
I feel for you. It’s a tough situation to have negative feelings about your partner’s best friend.But before I address your question, we need to look a little deeper.
You need to separate your anger towards your boyfriend from your anger towards his best friend.
Of course, it hurts to know that his friend knew this information, cosigned it, and seemingly encouraged it.When I was in a relationship where my partner had cheated, I remember that feeling of finding out who had known.It burns.BUT…
Your boyfriend, not the friend, is the one who’d committed to you.
The best friend is not the one who made you feel like you imagined things all of that time.The best friend is not the one who deleted texts and had an emotional affair. Your boyfriend did that.
Although you said that you trust your boyfriend again and you’ve worked together to repair your relationship, I think there’s more work to do. The residual anger you have is being redirected at the best friend. I’m not saying this friend is a great guy, but he didn’t do these things to you.
You also mentioned that the friend hasn’t asked about your relationship — how it’s going.I’m not sure how you know that. I am assuming that he’s told you this.
Here is what I would do: Get real honest with yourself about any residual resentment or trust issues you have with your boyfriend. I am a big believer in clear and direct communication.
I think you need to talk with the best friend — a non-confrontational, but honest talk. It’s okay to tell the friend that it hurt to find out that he knew about the cheating and perhaps encouraged it. But don’t blame him for your boyfriend’s actions.
If you ask your boyfriend to dump his best friend, you’re likely not going to get the response that you want.
So if you decide to do that, you have to prepare yourself for how you will feel and what you will do if you don’t get what you want. I think that with a little compromise and a lot of direct, clear, calm communication, you can get to a place where you’ll be a bit more comfortable with him.
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Am I An Emotional Cheater?
Q.
Hi Erin,
So I do have feelings for two guys at the moment, and it is very confusing. I’m hoping you can shed some light on the situation.
I recently started dating this guy. Things were good, but he has gotten very clingy, something I don't like. We have been together for less than a month, and he says he loves me and wants to be together forever. I never thought we were gonna last long, to begin with.
I have had feelings for my best guy friend for about three months now. I have been open about it and have found out that he feels the same.
I feel like this is cheating — having feelings for him, so I feel bad. I have thought about ending things with my current boyfriend, but I don't want to hurt him.
I spend more time with my best friend than the boyfriend. Every time my phone rings I hope it’s my best friend calling or messaging me. I'm disappointed when it's not him, and I get aggravated when my boyfriend tries to be very lovely with me.
I recently lied to my boyfriend about being busy to hang out with my best friend. I have never fought with my best friend but have my boyfriend. I'm not sure if I should just go ahead and end things or let it play out.
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A.
You are making this situation way too complicated.
Yes, this is 100% emotional cheating.
You clearly want to be with the best friend, not the boyfriend. You know the feelings are reciprocal. What are you doing?
Well, first I think you may be afraid to make a go of it with the best friend. There’s a whole lot more at stake with him than the boyfriend. How do I know? Because I was that jank that got in relationships with people who felt emotionally safe for me and spent time pining away for someone else. Of course, I wouldn’t actually be with the person I had real feelings for because that was emotionally risky.
But, what I did, and what you’re doing now, is not fair to anyone. No good can come of this.
I know that no good can come of this because I made the mistake you're making, more than once or twice or three times.
Also, there may be a little of that “I don’t want to be the bad guy/girl/person” in the situation. You said you didn’t want to hurt your boyfriend. But, staying with him while you really want to be with someone else is hurting him.
Setting him free is the kindest thing to do.
Sidenote: The boyfriend does sound clingy.
I don’t trust anyone who says they want to be with you forever after knowing you for a mere few weeks. I mean, I am sure I was the person at some point, but I was a mess, ya know?
So let’s make it super simple. Break up with the boyfriend. See what happens with the best friend before you attempt to get involved with anyone else. And, know that sometimes our fantasy of what it would be like with someone we are friends with is a lot better than the reality of it. When we’re not in the healthiest places, that type of longing can look a whole lot like something it really is not.
The information within Ask Erin should in no way be interpreted as medical advice because I'm not a medical professional. But I am here to help — to share with you the wisdom I've gained after years of making mistakes. If you have a question for me about relationships, addiction, dating, friendship, depression, sex, consent, what I can’t stop eating and somebody please take them away, Blue Muscovite, or anything at all, use the contact form or email me at askerin@ravishly.com. As always, your anonymity is golden. Lastly, I’m so excited to share my Ask Erin Self-Care Guide, free when you sign up for my weekly newsletter. xoxo